Crisis of Confidence

We all have them.  And I've seen them this week in many shapes in sizes...from my own personal freak out when I wasn't sure I was "getting it' at work, to my colleague's feelings of helplessness when her daughter was sick, to my daughter's nervousness at her first dance.

What gets you through?  For me it was remembering I have to ground myself.  I need to spend a little time here.  Ultimately, it's up to me to bring myself back.  I am responsible for me...no one else is.  So I need to know me better.  What makes me tick?  What do I like, what don't I like?  What gives me the strength everyday to move forward to my goals?  What are my goals?  What brings me pleasure and joy?  I can't stand by and wait for anyone else to lead and direct my life.  How incredibly victimy (a word?) and selfish.  The buck stops here.

This goes for food and weight watchers also.  I had a rough week during New Year's.  I lost my motivation.  I found myself "cheating" a lot and not writing things down.  And it just make me feel creepy, so I bucked up and took it back to the ground.  Grounding myself.  Getting back to why I do what I do...

Side note...my colleague and I were also talking about fleeting celebrity status and how so many on reality shows are thrust into the limelight for a season and then dropped.  Specifically, Erik Chopin, who is within 30 pounds of his 2006 weight.  Why?  Because, according to him, he lost his drive.


Peeps, we have got to keep our drive.  Sorry, Erik, but my gut (no pun intended) says you were doing this for  everyone else but yourself.  Time to get grounded. Quoting Shakespeare from Hamlet, "This above all: to thine own self be true." Now figure out who thine own self is.


PS.  Thanks mom, for the quote.  I think you first started saying it to me when I was in high school.


PPS.  Check out the Biggest Loser Store. They are definitely in it to provide tools to us, but it is up to us to make the most of the tools.